Learning, learning, learning. Life is the ultimate professor. Every day it seems that life presents a new problem. And often they are the dreaded story problems! No, not grade school algebra, but real-life story problems. Lately life has decided to teach me more about endurance.
I have a friend in real life who will not quit anything! She will stand in place and just take it until the task is completed. On one level I admire her, on a separate level I think she is nuts! Its the old hold 'em, fold 'em thing. She will stick to the most unpleasant job because she does not want to be labeled a quitter. I feel that knowing when to say thank you and walk away is a sign of wisdom. Its the line 'don't go where you're not wanted' expanded to 'don't stay where you aren't wanted'. These seem to me to be easy life issues. Look inside, think and decide which way to go. I have rarely regretted stepping away when it was time to do so.
Right now I am staying put. I'm trying to learn what life wants to teach me about being steadfast. This morning I heard my knee pop with every step as I dragged the trash out to the curb. I don't need this right now, thank you very much! I need to be ten, or twenty years younger now! I need to be tough. I need to wake up ready to take on the world.
People have called me strong. I don't know about that. All I know right now is that when the child in me cries out "I don't think I can do this anymore", the adult says "yes, you can, and yes you will". I'm getting good at developing my own work-arounds. Shedding a lot of the nonsense has felt good. My priorities are different now, better. What rises to the top of the worry list is no longer silly stuff. My sense of clarity and purpose has never been sharper.
So, the endurance lesson goes on. I wonder if there will be a gold star on my paper at the end.
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